Integration
When funding for Homestyle Midwifery was cancelled and I completed my full time job as coordinator in July of ‘07, I needed to replenish from the experience. Homestyle’s absence created space for a new unknown regarding my work life and the only direction was a whispered word:
Integration.
I found myself hibernating; even when I wanted to emerge illness kept me down. In the quiet I began writing non-fiction again. Then in November of ‘07 my mentor friend suggested I start a blog and quickly I was amazed.
Around the same time people approached asking for input regarding different aspects of their businesses. I was puzzled. Who? Me? Then I started looking back on the last 15 years of communication and organizational support I’ve offered small businesses.
Still, I was a bit resistant. How did this potential avenue relate to my writing and healing work? More invitations arrived. As a follower of synchronicity I started saying yes and noticed how many parts of myself appeared during one “business” interaction–the communicator, organizer, writer, editor, energy reader, personal processor, visioner and even the sacred dancer.
Did integration mean I was to create a new business?
Almost simultaneously I learned that a personal essay is about to be posted on a national website (more on that soon).
Some truths seem as close as the tip of my nose, yet in actuality, looking too hard leaves me crosseyed with a headache! Perhaps because some truths are more powerfully felt than seen.
The moment I heard about the essay being posted, I was suddenly transported from an either/or story about the direction of work (businesswoman versus healing practitioner versus writer) to another place. In this new land, I could accept–and celebrate–all parts of myself. Saying yes to a new aspect didn’t make me less. In that moment, I felt integration as a state of wholeness.
I hope to be able to take up permanent residence in the land of integration. But whatever happens, I am grateful to have found a place here in the blogesphere to keep exploring and connecting.
In the spirit of yes, I am welcoming Staci Boden Consulting to Practical Spirituality as another opportunity to discover how insight and everyday moments offer meaning. It seems fitting because after all, practical spirituality is ultimately about the journey along the way.
What is whispering in your ear?
Tags: blogging, change, flower of life, gratitude, integration, life, spirituality, trust, unknown
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